Frankly speaking...

i know i kinda promised i will blog about happy stuff.. n trust me when i say there r many happy stuff happening..

but it seems life is well nvr dull.. and it can get very shitty at times..

sigh...

i mean it suddenly feels like i m all alone.. n theres so so very much work to do.
it does not help that for various irritating reason i cant ask ppl for help.. but then again i chose this path so i really shld not b complaining..

just that sometimes.. it really sucks.. as in the benefits is being shadowed by the shit thats happening..

nonetheless as i always say.. i will find a way.. even if that means blasting my way thru.. sighz

feel damm tired...

on a very not so random note.. i tink first thing for any relationship to take flight is to have trust. trust is like super impt.. well at least for me.. with trust anything can b done..

n i guess one thing that really really irks me is when trust is broken..
i mean i had my lessons on trust way way back in those young days.... and i tot i learnt my lesson.. but oh wellz..

sometimes even i forget some things i guess.. the feeling sucks

anyway a fren of mine, 8 years and counting, said something to me regarding frenship.. and now wit wads happening in sch/hall..

i tink i finally realised something... that frens of a few weeks cant and will nvr replace those forged from 8 years...

sigh..
the feeling sucks... it really does..

yet somehow or rather i dun wan such things to happen.. i really wanna give the chance for new frenships to grow.. but yet...
well.. stupid things just happen.. and it really sucks..


and it pisses me off...

thus.. i must say.. i apologise to my frens of 8years.. all of them... i think i kinda took your for granted... which shld not be the case..

i m sry ...


ARGH!

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note to self: i will not feel this way tmr... or rather when the sun shines..
must smile..