wandering wanderer

i shall aspire not to think so much next time...

it saves my energy for other things..

and creates less misunderstandings..


side note:

i have to go for a HOC meeting which clashes with cheer chalet.. it was supposed to be in the afternoon but somehow it got shifted to the night time.. wtf...

and that really irritates me...

The Beholder sees all....

I will start on my NIE service learning project soon.. sigh...
just cant find the energy or the will because seriously it is not counted towards our GPA... and some people just dun care abt it... aka as usual not everyone is pulling their own weight..

argh!

I used to put in my full energy in doing this service learning thing or otherwise known as GESL.. but ever since my fren told me that it does not count towards GPA and also by seeing some of my grp members not doing their share.. i kinda cant be bothered too.. nonetheless i still did my part..

good thing is at least my programs sub-com the ppl r nice ppl who do their work.. if not i wld hav pmsed and probably screwed it all.. haha its good to work with nice ppl.. its good to work with nice ppl who do their work.. haha..

ok bah.. shall not bitch abt GESL... its going to be over by 14th dec.. so yar.. endure, do a gd job n fuck it afterwards..

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on a side note.. and i know i really should not think about this, esp since some of my friends have not even finished their exams yet.. but i really really kinda wannna know what my results are.. lolz...

by talking to some ppl.. i just suddenly have this urge to fast forward time and just find out how did i do... n get it over n done with.. a personal thought i have is if in this first sem, i am able to fulfill my results aims (which obviously i have set aims).. then it kinda vindicates me that i am still able to juggle my many committments btween, NIE, Hall and Canoeing.. if i fail to fulfill my aims, then i will have to make the painful decision to drop some.. sigh.. and frankly i rather not..

also theres some issue of pride.. lolz... i cannot and will not lose out to 'some people'...
but thats not really the point...

crossover crossover crossover

so the wait goes on and on i guess..

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brighter note!.. sunday is the day my life changed.. after wearing specs for i think more than a decade.. i finally went for lasik surgery.. haha the operation was itself very short.. 15min n thats it.. but it felt long.. to me, i felt it was not as painless as they say it is. lolz.. rather uncomfortable actually.. and the recovery as usual is rather long n irritating..

thank goodness for lubricating eyedrops.. haha

so now my vision is near perfect.. i typing this entry wo wearing specs .. but there is fuzzy feeling abt it.. its like i m looking thru a crying eye.. lolz.. doctor said it will take 2 weeks to clear up.. and 3 mths for total recovery...

so i shall wait.. n b patient.. n not be paranoid..
and above all.. i will take care of my eyes..
haha

it is amusing, well at least for myself, when i feel something on my eye.. and i wld reach for my specs, only that theres no specs on my eyes.. lolz.. its like some phantom feeling of specs on the bridge of my nose.. freaky ar.. lolz.. guess need some time to get used to it..

it shall be interesting life after lasik... i can canoeing wo fear.. do cheer wo fear.. run wo hassle.. and well hopefully look good =P

Ahhhh.. the great outdoors

well.. finally 1 semester for some NIE students have come to a close.

and really, i think the prof of NIE want us to end out examinations with a bang, like bang head the kinda bang. the very last paper i took which was taken yesterday was Maths Paper, it was basically a huge test on number systems to do with all the laws of addition, multiplication and divisibility, then there working operations in different number bases, knowing n converting to different number systems like roman, mayan and lastly the use of algebra n model drawing to solve word problems.. lolz

i know sound simple, not as chiam as those things that are mentioned in some other Maths course.. but seriously for a person like me who hates maths.. i think its quite the killer, especially since we r suppose to use what we have learnt in this Maths course to teach out student which i still do not see the point. anyway the paper was 2 and half hour, and omg lah, i think it was the first paper where no one left early and i felt it was like a history essay examinations coz of i was literally rushing to write out all those workings and what not, write until hand pain.

since when does doing Maths give hand pains.. haha

anyway.. shall not talk much about the paper, suffice to say it has its random moment and some WTF moments too. i should be at least contented that i more or less did or attempted majority of the questions in the paper. some people i heard did not fare that well.. hmmm shall see bah..

cross over cross over cross over...

yar but for the moments who cares.. the exams are over and lets start off with a party!. haha yup went clubbing with NIE mates which degenerated into NIE mate and friends.. haha..

sigh, before the maths paper, everyone said wanna go, after the maths paper, some people say mother do not allow (abit wtf ar).. and some people say they do not feel like going coz the paper traumatised them (even more wtf).. haha.. anyway in the end, it was just my nie mate and me.. and thnk goodness there were her frens if not will be very weird.. haha..

ok lah, counting that i have not clubbed since ages ago, the hall bash this year does not really count ar.. it went quite well.. oh yar we went double O.. the music was half bad - half good bah.. first part got damm alot of techno.. but later it was better.. haha.. dancing was fun as usual. ;)

anyway now still suffering the effects.. also dun know why.. i din drink that much hmmm... haha

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well so now thats the exams are over.. suddenly i feel damm free.. and u know what gosh no one is free .. AIYO!

obviously hall ppl who are obviously all NTU are still taking their exams or have not even started.. so they r out..

the SJI bros who are all in uni too.. are either becoming very celeb in their own area and also are taking their exams... tgt with having sex with some random humanoid i m sure ;)

the same goes for SAJC peeps... sigh

and even the LTA of the signal corp is having some shit in his camp...

so yar i m pretty much left alone..
and yes i hav work to do... GESL is coming up soon.. and yes i m sure JCRC will come haunting me soon..

but i think for the moment.. i will just slack it all away.. hehe

The silence before the storm breaks...

between crafting 2 written assignments, presenting 3 projects, doing 1 English Final Sem paper and having to worry about mummy's 2 kneel caps... i tot i did well for this week... everything went as smoothly as it can go.. i tink...

well this has been a most challenging and interesting week.. haha.. for a moment or two, i seriously thought i wun b able to make it but well i did in the end..

for the written assignments, i must really thank those who did the assignment with me.. lolz probably wun b able to find the motivation to do wo themz.. haha. oh not to mention the sharing of resources and tips.. one thing i seriously dun like abt assignment is the word count... haha.. always overshoot then i got to look back and edit .. which will result in me having to kill off all those flowery language sentences which while nice to read, actually does not contribute much to content.. haha! .. they are just there to restate a point.. or sum up something. still i tink my writing skills r not bad... there is still a decent level of language being used for all my written assignments.. thank the heavens!

for the projects.. thnk goodness i have good members who did their share of work and even though it seems we r all busy busy people (to organise a meeting is so hard =P).. we somehow managed to produce a good presentation.. i personally at least our presentation is max 20min long and not like some other grps' presentation which was like 30 over mins.. the horror... ahah
oh and we r totally rock at role-play.. haha being the drama ppl we are.. lolz!

as for the English Paper.. oh well no pt talking abt it.. feel like 75% confidence.. haha.. forgot a small section .. but then again quite alot of ppl died there.. the text type that i analyse i hoped i got it right.. alot of debate going on about that.. hmmmm... shall not think abt it too much, its over... i shall wait for the results to come..

then there are mummy's kneel caps.. haha... i m glad she is doing as well as she can in her current state, dun need to worry so much.. haha.. but of course she is bored and as a result she has resorted to spamming me sms.. which can get rather irritating.. just ytd she was smsing me telling me her brave tale of going to our nearby clinic to change her dressing.. n on another day was that she managed to mop the floor.. well yes you get the point... bet boredom is like eating her alive.. haha... on the other hand, i wished she had chosen another time to go for her ops, having to cycle btwn her and assignment is the moral debate of the year man.. haha.. sigh!

i will and always be strong...

well the week is over.. and things have settled down.. next week it all starts again but this time its not as shagged.. only 1 Presentation, 1 Maths Quiz and 1 Science Final Sem Paper.. not that bad considering this week .. haha

nonetheless, i am going to restart my mugging engine soon.. but just taking a short break first. slacked thru the whole of thurs (except during maths tut, which i died in ).. haha was listening to 'I've got a feeling' by B E P.. haha... resisting the urge to just dance around my room as i conquered that last assignment.. ok random.. tonite i shall go eat XLB with army frens and CY (the bimbs).. haha

weekend when it comes.. then i wil start.. sigh.. shall b doing maths n science..

i have and will continue to survive


look for my revival on the 18th of Nov... Muhahaha

Buckets,,, they come in buckets...

hmmm.. well amid all the work.. i still find myself somehow alive. haha

good thing is the group assignments seem to be taking shape and so far, as far as i can tell, drawing from the comments the tutors have said.. our grps, esp the ICT one, seem to be on the right track... PBL is being irritating as usual but whatevr.

i have not started on my individual assignments yet.. 2 1000 words essay on Ed Psy.. my god.. well i will start soon..

cant wait for this 2 weeks to b over.. for that wld mean all the projects n assignments r handed in and done.. n all i have to worry abt are the test papers ... strange ar.. i actually do not fear the test papers as much as i fear the assignments.. gosh..

so the stress builds up...

but i shall try to see the 'silver lining'...
for one.. HOCC has finally came to a decision on the whole MJ saga.. glad to put that behind me.. and move on in life... and hopefully everyone will move on... i think i did my best.. managed to come to a decision that is good for hall and participants.. but of course the decision made will never please everyone, that is why we have a commitee... to decide on a final say..

i thought i handled it quite well...

another.. is that canoeing training has been suspended ... haha.. i know i know.. i m and still passionate abt canoeing.. i really do wanna master my strokes.. n all.. n i do fantasize abt getting fitter and buff .. and getting a medal .. haha.. but for now.. seeing how everythng is like clashing up down left right center.. it is good that i can finally take a breather and concentrate on things that need attention...

things like school work.. not saying i forsake those.. always have been giving attention to work but now is the time to give 110% attention to it.. haha

so i hereby promise.. i wil put back the 100% into canoeing after the tests and assignment.. yar
afterall i dun wan to lose my tan =P

on the other hand.. it also allows me to settle some other things in life..
once again. i come to a pt where i must ask myself which is more impt in life...

Hall.. or ... otherwise..

this time round though.. i tink there is no compromise..
but well i try my best to please all sides yar..

i hope everything will b fine.. and turn out fine..
sigh...

the truth is.. one just does not leave everything hanging.. or drop everything.. however noble we think ourselves to be.. things just do not work that way..

but i will try..

just hope all these will have a happy ending...
and i wish kl will b back soon.. haha.. its hard not to have someone to pour troubles to..



i wil keep smiling.. =)