Buckets,,, they come in buckets...

hmmm.. well amid all the work.. i still find myself somehow alive. haha

good thing is the group assignments seem to be taking shape and so far, as far as i can tell, drawing from the comments the tutors have said.. our grps, esp the ICT one, seem to be on the right track... PBL is being irritating as usual but whatevr.

i have not started on my individual assignments yet.. 2 1000 words essay on Ed Psy.. my god.. well i will start soon..

cant wait for this 2 weeks to b over.. for that wld mean all the projects n assignments r handed in and done.. n all i have to worry abt are the test papers ... strange ar.. i actually do not fear the test papers as much as i fear the assignments.. gosh..

so the stress builds up...

but i shall try to see the 'silver lining'...
for one.. HOCC has finally came to a decision on the whole MJ saga.. glad to put that behind me.. and move on in life... and hopefully everyone will move on... i think i did my best.. managed to come to a decision that is good for hall and participants.. but of course the decision made will never please everyone, that is why we have a commitee... to decide on a final say..

i thought i handled it quite well...

another.. is that canoeing training has been suspended ... haha.. i know i know.. i m and still passionate abt canoeing.. i really do wanna master my strokes.. n all.. n i do fantasize abt getting fitter and buff .. and getting a medal .. haha.. but for now.. seeing how everythng is like clashing up down left right center.. it is good that i can finally take a breather and concentrate on things that need attention...

things like school work.. not saying i forsake those.. always have been giving attention to work but now is the time to give 110% attention to it.. haha

so i hereby promise.. i wil put back the 100% into canoeing after the tests and assignment.. yar
afterall i dun wan to lose my tan =P

on the other hand.. it also allows me to settle some other things in life..
once again. i come to a pt where i must ask myself which is more impt in life...

Hall.. or ... otherwise..

this time round though.. i tink there is no compromise..
but well i try my best to please all sides yar..

i hope everything will b fine.. and turn out fine..
sigh...

the truth is.. one just does not leave everything hanging.. or drop everything.. however noble we think ourselves to be.. things just do not work that way..

but i will try..

just hope all these will have a happy ending...
and i wish kl will b back soon.. haha.. its hard not to have someone to pour troubles to..



i wil keep smiling.. =)

Worries

it is that time of the month...

it seem so weird that it feels like mere days that we went thru our 'mid-term' phase of uni.. haha now i am once again fighthing the battle to prepare and get rdy for the 'final-term' phase of Sem1 of NIE..

and so its that time of the month again...

where the assignment start to pile up and well eye bags become bigger and bigger. this time round, instead of individual assignments, there is individual assignments AND group assignments AND tests...

sigh...

i seriously starting to hate group assignments, doing 3 at a time is damm grossed. haha. not to mention, everyone has like different time table since we r all teachers but yet studying different subjects.. there r the social studies teacher, PE teachers, MT teachers and General teachers...

sigh if so many different time tables, its so damm hard to organize a meeting and thus work done is so inefficient. haha.

and i find a weird pattern whereby i m doing all the compiling of the project work.. sigh..that is quite irritating too. but nvm i shall not complain, afterall if i do this project well, my mark wil go up too.. so got to tell myself that...

i just hate inefficiency... argh!

so rush rush assignments both individual and grp... and hopefully later i got time to study for the tests that are coming up. hmmm .. good thing is at least for NIE students, our examinations end early. most of us shld clear our exams by mid Nov.. haha

i guess i can use that as a motivation yar.. haha suffer now, enjoy later. yes i shall. Mid Nov, when most of the NTU population r not done with their exams. then i shall laugh at them now.. hahaha...

no i will not be that bad =)

to make things better, i heard that 2 of my english courses that we r taking are actually not counted into our GPA.. they r just in essence just a course with a pass or fail grade. hmmm.. interesting, i totally did not know that until recently. haha YIPEE!

i cant transribe for nuts.. n phonetics kills me...

well hall life is well.. as it is ... yar..
dun tink wanna say much abt it... but lets just say things r rather lukewarm.. haha
got this strange feeling of feeling err... hmmm a bit off..
like no heart.. also dun know why... hmm shall reflect on it and see why i m feeling the way i m feeling..

oh on a side note.. i have came to realise ppl will kinda say anything just to hide something from you and its best not to probe, so yar...

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to be frank, got alot of things on my mind but cant really find someone to say it all out.. kl is in aust now.. so oh wellz... i also wanna ask a particular someone a question.. but i cant seem to find the guts or the chance to do so.. which irritates me

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Canoeing well is going ok.. training is intensify.. and the stress and worry of not being to cope with canoeing and jcrc and studies is very real, esp when u have frens telling u to quit one for another. so far, no trouble from the dislocated shoulder, so shall slowly up the level.. haha..

ok bah.. got to sleep.. time still got project.. and all that shit..

Frankly speaking...

i know i kinda promised i will blog about happy stuff.. n trust me when i say there r many happy stuff happening..

but it seems life is well nvr dull.. and it can get very shitty at times..

sigh...

i mean it suddenly feels like i m all alone.. n theres so so very much work to do.
it does not help that for various irritating reason i cant ask ppl for help.. but then again i chose this path so i really shld not b complaining..

just that sometimes.. it really sucks.. as in the benefits is being shadowed by the shit thats happening..

nonetheless as i always say.. i will find a way.. even if that means blasting my way thru.. sighz

feel damm tired...

on a very not so random note.. i tink first thing for any relationship to take flight is to have trust. trust is like super impt.. well at least for me.. with trust anything can b done..

n i guess one thing that really really irks me is when trust is broken..
i mean i had my lessons on trust way way back in those young days.... and i tot i learnt my lesson.. but oh wellz..

sometimes even i forget some things i guess.. the feeling sucks

anyway a fren of mine, 8 years and counting, said something to me regarding frenship.. and now wit wads happening in sch/hall..

i tink i finally realised something... that frens of a few weeks cant and will nvr replace those forged from 8 years...

sigh..
the feeling sucks... it really does..

yet somehow or rather i dun wan such things to happen.. i really wanna give the chance for new frenships to grow.. but yet...
well.. stupid things just happen.. and it really sucks..


and it pisses me off...

thus.. i must say.. i apologise to my frens of 8years.. all of them... i think i kinda took your for granted... which shld not be the case..

i m sry ...


ARGH!

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note to self: i will not feel this way tmr... or rather when the sun shines..
must smile..